I was looking through twitter and saw a tweet from one of my friends that said “What was one of the hardest decisions you had to make in you life? Was it worth it!” and that got me thinking! Then I decided lets write A blog post about it!
I have made a lot of decisions in my life but a really hard one was having to let my boyfriend go because he should have a better girlfriend then me. I told you guys my break up story (Click here to see that!) But I never gone into much info on it because it was hard and I’m still going through it but I cant take back that decision I made and I know it was a good decision at the time.
I have a anxiety disorder (Click here to see that!) and living with that is hard enough and he was always there for me! He was amazing and he helped me a lot but 2ish years into our relationship shit started to happen. I felt like he didn’t want to be with me and that I wasn’t making him happy. We started fighting a lot and it wasn’t fun anymore… It was making my anxiety worse so I had to make a decision and I chose to let him go. I did love him still kinda do but It was my fault for the fighting because of my anxiety and he should have someone better then that! One of the reason it was hard to let him go was being losing him would mean I would be losing the only guy who I could talk to about all the shit that happens in my life. and that was something I couldn’t do but all the negative weighed out the positive and I need to learn how to live without a guy or someone I could talk to.
Was it worth it? I don’t know. It still hurts but I know I will find someone better and someone who can handle me and my anxiety. But it was still a break up and It still hurts even after 3ish months! I know I will be ok!! I’m just trying to stay positive and surrounding me with people who will make my life better!
I hope you guys enjoyed this post I just wanted to share that with you guys after seeing that tweet! If you want let me know in the comments down below want was one decision you had to make! As always I love you guys and ill see you in the next post!
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