Hi guys. As you obviously so I ended up taking a break last week. It was kind of unexpected the kind of was just a spare of the moment thing and I kind of wanted to talk to you guys about it why I took the break and just a update on me. So let’s go ahead and just get started.
Lately I’ve been noticing just my anxiety getting worse. I knew I was having unexpected days and I know that that is just a normal thing for me for one day will be worse than others but lately it’s been like everyday. I just see myself getting mentally and physically exhausted but I don’t do anything. It’s hard for me to want to get up out of bed because of the stress and because of that anxiety I just don’t want to deal with that. It’s gotten to the point that I can’t sit down and focus on writing anything whether it be for the blog or for school because my mind is on the phone when am I going to have my next panic attack. Or I just can’t focus at all. I don’t sleep at all like today it is Friday at 5 p.m. I woke up at like 4 p.m. but I didn’t go to bed until noon so that’s for I was asleep that I was lucky to get but most days I get 2 hours of sleep if I’m lucky. I know my family doesn’t understand that but it sucks that I’m feeling this way and I can’t do anything about it if that makes sense. I don’t know I think I’m just more upset that I work so hard to get to a good place with my anxiety disorder just to have that all thrown out the window and be back at square one it upsets me a lot. But I know that I love this is just like a little bump in the road I know has a lot to do with all the stress I’m under and just everything going on that it’s hard. But I’ve been dealing with this since I was 16 you think I would be used to stress like this but I’m not and I don’t know I just need to sleep and breath.
I’m sorry guys that this was down post. I’ve just haven’t been feeling good lately and just wanted to let you guys know what’s been going on.