Lately, I’ve been fighting my anxiety a lot. I don’t know why it’s been so bad lately. If you saw my post last month about the difference between having anxiety and an anxiety disorder then you know and when I say I’m sick and not feeling good it’s not because of a cold or flu but because of my anxiety is literally making me sick. It’s been so hard for me to do anything. I fight myself to get out of bed. All I want to do is just sleep. Because every time I get up I think of everything that’s just me and everything I have to do and it’s too much. I just want to lay in bed and go to sleep. I hate this feeling because everyone’s my mood. I want to be happy and I am happy but it’s hard to really do anything. When people act if I want to go do something I have to say no. The chest pains, stomach pains and the headaches are the worst. I don’t feel like explaining to them the whole medical history of an anxiety disorder. It’s just been my mood lately and it sucks. It’s affected my work because every time I go to sit on my desk to get work done I just get stressed out. It affects everything I do my family. Because I just don’t want to get out of bed. It’s not me being depressed even though it sounds like that I just don’t want to handle the stress and the pain that comes with it.