I haven’t been doing the best. A lot has happened in January and I’m surprised I’m alive at this point. So here’s a little inside exclusive on what’s been Happening.
So as I started for years the apartment I’m in now fucking sucks. It’s the worst, so, we have been trying to move but that has been so stressful that I little can’t do anything because I tensed up and want to so badly go into little space because I can’t handle being an adult. But I can’t do that because my dad got so stressed it gave him fucking shingles, and he’s been in so much pain that I’m getting up every other hour to put medicines on him, so, I don’t need him to stress anyone and I’m not getting any sleep. Because I’m taking care of my dad it started giving me PTSD from when i took care og my mom and all the feels going with that. My dad isn’t as bad as her but It still makes me feel a like shit. I have been getting so stressed that I have been throwing up randomly because of it and just crying a shit ton.
I think the worst part is I have no one to talk to. I can’t talk to my boyfriend because I don’t want to be a burden to him, and He’s already mad that I don’t sleep and I stay up late, but also I have a lot of going on soo… I don’t have anyone to vent to but y’all and i haven’t had time to write with everything else so, it’s a never-ending thing. This is a only half of everything going on, but I hope to slow work on writing more we have to move within a week or so. I’m hoping after we figure out the whole moving thing, I can breathe just a little bit because right now I’m suffocating.